Post by MYŌJIN on Dec 9, 2020 13:13:08 GMT -5
always been really bad at this kind of thing, but I feel that it's for the best.
October 28th, last year, was when I was invited to be an admin here. As someone who had just won his first title ever in efedding, as someone who was pretty much a nobody outside of AXW which was closing at the time, I was given a chance to try this. And it made me so excited that I, just some nerdy teenager getting into efedding, was really being given a cool responsibility to have! And it was a great time and I will always appreciate it.
But now, I think I have to step down.
No, this is not because something went wrong or I have beef with anyone in the team. I'm doing this for the benefit of my mental health and to not hold the rest of the team down any longer. For a while, I haven't exactly been enjoying myself. As you all know, my grandfather passed last weekend and I decided to take a break from admining. Though I took somw time to think... and honestly asked myself if I even wanted to continue.
Even before then, I feel as if I started to get really burned out. As much as I enjoyed this thing and enjoyed working with the rest of the admins, personally it stopped becoming fun for me. I started feeling like I was losing my passion for it and matchwriting started feeling.. more like a chore. Because of that, I starred being less of a help and more of a liability. I didn't always get my votes on matches up, I wrote matches late and sometimes held the show up because of that. I now realize that in my current state, I wouldn't be much of a help plus I need a breather from it.
Let me clarify: I still enjoy efedding. I still enjoy rping. But all of that plus school plus helping to work on shows every two weeks got tiring and I haven't been feeling well in recent time.
All of this said, I am still beyond grateful for the time I've spent here. About a year and two months, time flew by. AWF gave me a shot, it helped me mature as a writer, and help me learned how to be a better teammate.
So thanks for everything, to the other admins, and especially to the roster too for making this feel all the more worth doing. I'm sure AVAC will rock due to the effort everyone here puts in.
You guys have been the best.
October 28th, last year, was when I was invited to be an admin here. As someone who had just won his first title ever in efedding, as someone who was pretty much a nobody outside of AXW which was closing at the time, I was given a chance to try this. And it made me so excited that I, just some nerdy teenager getting into efedding, was really being given a cool responsibility to have! And it was a great time and I will always appreciate it.
But now, I think I have to step down.
No, this is not because something went wrong or I have beef with anyone in the team. I'm doing this for the benefit of my mental health and to not hold the rest of the team down any longer. For a while, I haven't exactly been enjoying myself. As you all know, my grandfather passed last weekend and I decided to take a break from admining. Though I took somw time to think... and honestly asked myself if I even wanted to continue.
Even before then, I feel as if I started to get really burned out. As much as I enjoyed this thing and enjoyed working with the rest of the admins, personally it stopped becoming fun for me. I started feeling like I was losing my passion for it and matchwriting started feeling.. more like a chore. Because of that, I starred being less of a help and more of a liability. I didn't always get my votes on matches up, I wrote matches late and sometimes held the show up because of that. I now realize that in my current state, I wouldn't be much of a help plus I need a breather from it.
Let me clarify: I still enjoy efedding. I still enjoy rping. But all of that plus school plus helping to work on shows every two weeks got tiring and I haven't been feeling well in recent time.
All of this said, I am still beyond grateful for the time I've spent here. About a year and two months, time flew by. AWF gave me a shot, it helped me mature as a writer, and help me learned how to be a better teammate.
So thanks for everything, to the other admins, and especially to the roster too for making this feel all the more worth doing. I'm sure AVAC will rock due to the effort everyone here puts in.
You guys have been the best.