Post by Jay Stevens on Feb 24, 2021 18:43:00 GMT -5
Things have not been going to plan.
I suppose that’s true for all of my time in Northern Pro so I should be used to it by now. But as much as I can adapt on the fly and fight each battle that comes before me, it’s difficult to accept just out and out failure.
Not for one minute did I think I wouldn’t win the Cruiserweight Cup. I knew it wouldn’t be easy, the competition was strong, but I embraced that. But with each victory, four in a row, I felt more and more confident that this was my time. I swept my block, dispatched Adrien Cochrane and then found myself in the ring again with Eron Hunter.
And I lost.
I’d beaten him before in the tournament so I knew what I had to do that night. I could feel him going out. And if not for some luck on his part, I’d be champion. But it wasn’t luck, the coach made sure to remind me of that. “Ring awareness is a skill like any other” he said, making sure to remind me that I still have a long way to go and that every setback is an opportunity to learn and grow.
That’s a fine lesson and all, but it doesn’t quell the doubt of the “what if?” that keeps swirling in my head. After watching Eron Hunter fall to MYOJIN, I couldn’t help but think that if I’d been in that position I would have fared better. But I lost to Hunter, so maybe I wouldn’t have.
Then Nicole wins the Amazons Championship, a fact she makes sure to remind everyone of at every opportunity. Then Jordan finally gets his chance to shine and show the world what we on the team know he is made of. I’m proud of both of them, we celebrate wins as a team and we mourn losses as a team.
But I’m the only one who lost.
And it stings.
But I’m ready to get back into the grind. I’ve been letting the waves come to me and rolling with them, letting them take me wherever they may. I’m not going to leave things to chance anymore, I’m going to make my own luck.
Things haven’t gone to plan at all and I can only blame myself for that. The checklist is written and the path is there, it doesn’t matter what order we do it in. But it’s up to me to get it done.
Less passive, more aggressive.
Less cautious, more reckless.
It might just be time to get in some people’s way.
I suppose that’s true for all of my time in Northern Pro so I should be used to it by now. But as much as I can adapt on the fly and fight each battle that comes before me, it’s difficult to accept just out and out failure.
Not for one minute did I think I wouldn’t win the Cruiserweight Cup. I knew it wouldn’t be easy, the competition was strong, but I embraced that. But with each victory, four in a row, I felt more and more confident that this was my time. I swept my block, dispatched Adrien Cochrane and then found myself in the ring again with Eron Hunter.
And I lost.
I’d beaten him before in the tournament so I knew what I had to do that night. I could feel him going out. And if not for some luck on his part, I’d be champion. But it wasn’t luck, the coach made sure to remind me of that. “Ring awareness is a skill like any other” he said, making sure to remind me that I still have a long way to go and that every setback is an opportunity to learn and grow.
That’s a fine lesson and all, but it doesn’t quell the doubt of the “what if?” that keeps swirling in my head. After watching Eron Hunter fall to MYOJIN, I couldn’t help but think that if I’d been in that position I would have fared better. But I lost to Hunter, so maybe I wouldn’t have.
Then Nicole wins the Amazons Championship, a fact she makes sure to remind everyone of at every opportunity. Then Jordan finally gets his chance to shine and show the world what we on the team know he is made of. I’m proud of both of them, we celebrate wins as a team and we mourn losses as a team.
But I’m the only one who lost.
And it stings.
But I’m ready to get back into the grind. I’ve been letting the waves come to me and rolling with them, letting them take me wherever they may. I’m not going to leave things to chance anymore, I’m going to make my own luck.
Things haven’t gone to plan at all and I can only blame myself for that. The checklist is written and the path is there, it doesn’t matter what order we do it in. But it’s up to me to get it done.
Less passive, more aggressive.
Less cautious, more reckless.
It might just be time to get in some people’s way.