Post by Deleted on Jul 21, 2021 18:35:57 GMT -5
Over the past few days, I've reflected on my life, came to a few personal conclusions and a few professional ones. The biggest realization that I've come across is the simple fact that I made a huge mistake when I agreed to his offer. I've done some pretty horrible things in my life, things I shouldn't be proud of, things that would make an ordinary person cringe with the crushing humiliation that comes along with making that horrible decision. While I never really prided myself on being the smartest guy in the world, barely finished high school, The decision I made though, it's something I've found it hard to live with whenever I begin to think about it.
Joining Hell Brothers, worst decision I ever made. I was new around these people in the PWA locker room, I was desperate to attach myself onto anyone that I could so I would be able to learn the inner workings of these people I step into the ring with. So when Nighthawk came up and asked me, I didn't hesitate because I wanted to leech onto someone, pick their brains about everyone here in PWA. However, I picked the worst possible person in the process. I thought Nighthawk was a winner but as fate would have it, I hooked onto the biggest loser this place has seen, besides me.
When I got that phone call though, I heard how much money VCR was offering me, I took it 'Hawk. The money was just too great for me to pass up. I got an infant daughter, another on the way, moving into a new house and a mighty powerful need to eat. So call it my combined hate and greed but I had to take this. I need to know that you were the cause of my problems. I need the money that VCR is paying me. So my need caused the riff between us. Why in the hell do you think I left PWA so many times? I couldn't honestly stand you 'Hawk. I didn't need you giving me pointers, I didn't need your help. Oh, big deal you that you train some kids to be wrestlers. I've done the exact same thing. So why would I need your help?
High Stakes, the platform at wish you need to defeat me. I don't care if I win in the end 'Hawk because the money is all the same to me. The money and just the chance to beat your face in, it's winning enough. Losing has never really bothered me to be honest. I don't need to win to feel validated, not like you do. All the times you try your fancy ass wrestling, only to lose because the killer instinct wasn't there. When push comes to shove and shove comes to kicking, I'll be standing proud. I'll be standing in the middle of that ring, hand raised, family watching at home, cheering me on and I'll feel their love.
So once that bell rings and you're lookin' up at those lights for the hundredth time here in PWA, you'll realize something 'Hawk. You'll realize that I was right, that you were the weak link in Hell Brothers. YOU took the falls. YOU were the one who seemingly got pinned in every single tag team match were in. So it's always been about YOU! I was the afterthought. I was looking around the PWA fan boards, someone said that I was basically some sort loser. It got to me, it's burning in my soul thinking that because of you, I had to go off on some sort of crazy thing to get myself noticed where I FORCED myself to lose in order to gain some sort of following here. So it's because of YOU that people think nothing more of me then a common place show opener that couldn't beat a fly.
It changes in a few nights. Like I said 'Hawk, you'll realize how right I am and how horribly wrong you are.
Joining Hell Brothers, worst decision I ever made. I was new around these people in the PWA locker room, I was desperate to attach myself onto anyone that I could so I would be able to learn the inner workings of these people I step into the ring with. So when Nighthawk came up and asked me, I didn't hesitate because I wanted to leech onto someone, pick their brains about everyone here in PWA. However, I picked the worst possible person in the process. I thought Nighthawk was a winner but as fate would have it, I hooked onto the biggest loser this place has seen, besides me.
When I got that phone call though, I heard how much money VCR was offering me, I took it 'Hawk. The money was just too great for me to pass up. I got an infant daughter, another on the way, moving into a new house and a mighty powerful need to eat. So call it my combined hate and greed but I had to take this. I need to know that you were the cause of my problems. I need the money that VCR is paying me. So my need caused the riff between us. Why in the hell do you think I left PWA so many times? I couldn't honestly stand you 'Hawk. I didn't need you giving me pointers, I didn't need your help. Oh, big deal you that you train some kids to be wrestlers. I've done the exact same thing. So why would I need your help?
High Stakes, the platform at wish you need to defeat me. I don't care if I win in the end 'Hawk because the money is all the same to me. The money and just the chance to beat your face in, it's winning enough. Losing has never really bothered me to be honest. I don't need to win to feel validated, not like you do. All the times you try your fancy ass wrestling, only to lose because the killer instinct wasn't there. When push comes to shove and shove comes to kicking, I'll be standing proud. I'll be standing in the middle of that ring, hand raised, family watching at home, cheering me on and I'll feel their love.
So once that bell rings and you're lookin' up at those lights for the hundredth time here in PWA, you'll realize something 'Hawk. You'll realize that I was right, that you were the weak link in Hell Brothers. YOU took the falls. YOU were the one who seemingly got pinned in every single tag team match were in. So it's always been about YOU! I was the afterthought. I was looking around the PWA fan boards, someone said that I was basically some sort loser. It got to me, it's burning in my soul thinking that because of you, I had to go off on some sort of crazy thing to get myself noticed where I FORCED myself to lose in order to gain some sort of following here. So it's because of YOU that people think nothing more of me then a common place show opener that couldn't beat a fly.
It changes in a few nights. Like I said 'Hawk, you'll realize how right I am and how horribly wrong you are.