Post by Deleted on Jul 24, 2021 13:25:03 GMT -5
Oh boy, its video camera time, hurrah! Brad's face, you're watching, lets get this bitch started.
"So right now I find myself still in Boston because I can take a flight out first thing in the morning to where ever in the hell I need to be at tomorrow night. Tonight I was going to try to have a little fun with my children, you know, teach them how to sled and that sort of thing. But this group of morons, these teenagers had to come in and ruin my good time with my daughters.
See they said a few things that have been on my mind since I had that encounter. Much like everyone else here in nCw, one of them labeled me as emo. They placed a label on me that isn't quite true. See we're all emo. Emo is emotional and without emotions, what would make life worth living? So see, those labels that we get play games on us, they make us a little crazy, a little insane.
There have been so many times in my life where I've been labeled emo but you people don't get the whole concept of alcoholism, depression and a bottle of pain killers. Take all three of them at once for quite a portion of your life and see how it messes you up. See how that lethal combination can bring you down to your knees wondering why you want to keep on living.
I'm still recovering, still try to adjust to a so called "normal" mental feeling. I don't know how to grasp this concept. Its like trying to grasp this concept of what Xavier Williams would call butthurt. What is butthurt, Xavier? I don't quite understand what you mean. You want to brag about success?"
A small sigh, shaking his head before he continues.
"What you think of as butthurt isn't anything like you make it out to be. Why would I be jealous of a few crummy title reigns with the X Division belt and what, a month long World Title run? Really impressive Xavier, so impressive in fact that I'm ready to forfeit this match right now because there isn't a bone in my body that tells me I can compete with you.
When I leave for a few months at a time, its for my own personal reasons. Because I hate this place, that I need to step back and wonder why I get involved in this promotion because it drives me insane. You saw what happened in late 2008 when this place caused me to lose my sobriety. I nearly relapsed because of this promotion!
Maybe I'm just a glutton for personal punishment. Maybe I like causing harm on myself with a bottle of Jack Daniels and a handful of Dilaudids. So when I look at you, Xavier, I want to take that cocktail and down it so quickly so I can drown out your words. So I can ease my brain from wondering why you keep speaking about my life like you know it so well.
You act like you know me, Xavier and I don't understand why. You want to try to get under my skin? This place is already under my skin, just by putting me against you. You call this a strong style war because we've both used that Japanese wrestling style in a promotion that tries to accept these wrestlers as entertainers?
My war isn't some strong style thing with you Xavier. There isn't a war in nCw anymore that's worth waging. Your strong style wish won't come true tomorrow night. The only thing that happens is me getting into that ring and wrestling for reasons I don't even know. This place will make me crazy and you're the first person Xavier. You're just the first..."
Camera shuts off.
"So right now I find myself still in Boston because I can take a flight out first thing in the morning to where ever in the hell I need to be at tomorrow night. Tonight I was going to try to have a little fun with my children, you know, teach them how to sled and that sort of thing. But this group of morons, these teenagers had to come in and ruin my good time with my daughters.
See they said a few things that have been on my mind since I had that encounter. Much like everyone else here in nCw, one of them labeled me as emo. They placed a label on me that isn't quite true. See we're all emo. Emo is emotional and without emotions, what would make life worth living? So see, those labels that we get play games on us, they make us a little crazy, a little insane.
There have been so many times in my life where I've been labeled emo but you people don't get the whole concept of alcoholism, depression and a bottle of pain killers. Take all three of them at once for quite a portion of your life and see how it messes you up. See how that lethal combination can bring you down to your knees wondering why you want to keep on living.
I'm still recovering, still try to adjust to a so called "normal" mental feeling. I don't know how to grasp this concept. Its like trying to grasp this concept of what Xavier Williams would call butthurt. What is butthurt, Xavier? I don't quite understand what you mean. You want to brag about success?"
A small sigh, shaking his head before he continues.
"What you think of as butthurt isn't anything like you make it out to be. Why would I be jealous of a few crummy title reigns with the X Division belt and what, a month long World Title run? Really impressive Xavier, so impressive in fact that I'm ready to forfeit this match right now because there isn't a bone in my body that tells me I can compete with you.
When I leave for a few months at a time, its for my own personal reasons. Because I hate this place, that I need to step back and wonder why I get involved in this promotion because it drives me insane. You saw what happened in late 2008 when this place caused me to lose my sobriety. I nearly relapsed because of this promotion!
Maybe I'm just a glutton for personal punishment. Maybe I like causing harm on myself with a bottle of Jack Daniels and a handful of Dilaudids. So when I look at you, Xavier, I want to take that cocktail and down it so quickly so I can drown out your words. So I can ease my brain from wondering why you keep speaking about my life like you know it so well.
You act like you know me, Xavier and I don't understand why. You want to try to get under my skin? This place is already under my skin, just by putting me against you. You call this a strong style war because we've both used that Japanese wrestling style in a promotion that tries to accept these wrestlers as entertainers?
My war isn't some strong style thing with you Xavier. There isn't a war in nCw anymore that's worth waging. Your strong style wish won't come true tomorrow night. The only thing that happens is me getting into that ring and wrestling for reasons I don't even know. This place will make me crazy and you're the first person Xavier. You're just the first..."
Camera shuts off.