Post by Deleted on Jul 24, 2021 13:57:09 GMT -5
"This past week of my life has been one of the most confusing times, period. Its like this week has been more about realization more then wondering how I'm going ot manage to maim Spike in my creation. After a long time of thinking about and my wife pointing it out to me numerous times, she was right this whole time, I don't need to be Reckless Jack to deal with Spike. I don't need to have this name over myself, a lie that I've tried to live these past few weeks.
I mean would the Reckless Jack of old just roll over and let someone win like I did a few weeks ago against Shaddix? Would the old Reckless Jack taken a vow of silence? I think we all know how much I used to go on and on in the old days. So I mean, why would I need to continue this lie on a daily basis in which I can still think and believe that I could be Reckless Jack just one more time, for the last time before I put that name to bed.
I can't be him again. My life is at a different point and every single person in New Championship Wrestling or elsewhere knows this for a fact! You don't think I'm deserving of the name Kane? Your opinion brother because I sometimes pray to that God up in Heaven that I didn't have such a label placed on me anymore. You think I wanted this?! Do you honestly think that back on April 20th, 2007 that those were the words I wanted to hear escape from your mouth?!
I didn't but I rolled with it. I accepted the fact that I'm your twin brother and nothing will ever change that fact. Nothing will change the fact that our little sister has taken our experiences, our mistakes and made damn sure she hasn't done them for herself. You can keep saying I tainted her when she moved in with me last year but nothing, NOTHING, will change the fact that Freya evolved on her own into what she is. We're each our own person Spike, no matter how much you want to control us.
I tried controlling Freya earlier this year. I tried to tell her who she couldn't be friends with much like how you never wanted her to date and then marry Joe Ragnal. You know what that brought to me Spike? Do you know what trying to control an adult's life brought me? I almost lost Freya because of it. She didn't want to be my sister and she didn't want to be your sister but you were too busy chasing the image of Conrad to God's knows where.
The only you live with this image of dad in your head, the longer you're going to try to control my life and Freya's life. Are you going to force Xander into viewing the same world as you do? Are you going to show him how to pick up a needle when he turns seventeen and how not to inject it straight into his vein while a ton of heroin courses through his body, ruining him for life?
I can understand if you'd want to teach someone a few things but what you've been doing is just out of control. You've never approved of me from the moment you met me a few years ago. We were complete contrasts but we just didn't know it at the time. You're a stuck up prude who thinks that the world revolves around yourself and the image of dad rolling through your head while he "tells" you that everyone is out to get you. That everyone is talking junk behind your back.
I've never uttered a bad word against you, Michael, until you've always provoked me into doing so. Remember last year? Remember last year when I was having the dreams where you were {No Means No} Megan? How angry was I because that dream, that nightmare wouldn't leave me? I'm getting that same feeling now but its only a little different then what it was before. Its now you killing your own son's life by doing the exact same thing dad did to us, to toughen us up.
He faked his own death and you're believing this false image of him in your head? Michael, get real help and don't fake your way through it this time. I don't know how many more times I can repeat this same verse over and over again. Dad forced mom to put a bullet through her head. He forced me to go live in the States with our aunt and uncle. He made sure that Freya would get messed up for life in some insane asylum. And then he put you into an orphange.
We've all had it tough brother, tougher then a few people have but this goes on and on in the world and do you think that people like this see images of the man who f*cked their life up?! They get help, real help instead of faking it...
*Brad takes a moment to compose his thoughts before completely changing his tone.*
Do you know the part in 8 Mile where Em gets his ass kicked by those six guys? He knew what was going to happen to him and he accepted it. Em let those guys beat him senseless. They were about to kill him and one of 'em said not to do it. You see Spike, what separates us from each other is that I have that voice and you don't. I know when to stop when someone is beaten and broken. Even when I said that I wanted to kill you earlier this week, I'll never be able to do it because of that voice.
Beat me Spike, hurt me. I want you make me bleed to satisfy your own sick bloodlust that Conrad has boiling in your head over words I never said. If you end my career on Sunday night, then that's what you were meant to do brother. It was your destiny in this industry to take the man who looks like you out of this business forever. I know you want me dead either way but like I told you a couple of days ago.
I love you Michael Kane and nothing will ever change that, not even if you killed me."
I mean would the Reckless Jack of old just roll over and let someone win like I did a few weeks ago against Shaddix? Would the old Reckless Jack taken a vow of silence? I think we all know how much I used to go on and on in the old days. So I mean, why would I need to continue this lie on a daily basis in which I can still think and believe that I could be Reckless Jack just one more time, for the last time before I put that name to bed.
I can't be him again. My life is at a different point and every single person in New Championship Wrestling or elsewhere knows this for a fact! You don't think I'm deserving of the name Kane? Your opinion brother because I sometimes pray to that God up in Heaven that I didn't have such a label placed on me anymore. You think I wanted this?! Do you honestly think that back on April 20th, 2007 that those were the words I wanted to hear escape from your mouth?!
I didn't but I rolled with it. I accepted the fact that I'm your twin brother and nothing will ever change that fact. Nothing will change the fact that our little sister has taken our experiences, our mistakes and made damn sure she hasn't done them for herself. You can keep saying I tainted her when she moved in with me last year but nothing, NOTHING, will change the fact that Freya evolved on her own into what she is. We're each our own person Spike, no matter how much you want to control us.
I tried controlling Freya earlier this year. I tried to tell her who she couldn't be friends with much like how you never wanted her to date and then marry Joe Ragnal. You know what that brought to me Spike? Do you know what trying to control an adult's life brought me? I almost lost Freya because of it. She didn't want to be my sister and she didn't want to be your sister but you were too busy chasing the image of Conrad to God's knows where.
The only you live with this image of dad in your head, the longer you're going to try to control my life and Freya's life. Are you going to force Xander into viewing the same world as you do? Are you going to show him how to pick up a needle when he turns seventeen and how not to inject it straight into his vein while a ton of heroin courses through his body, ruining him for life?
I can understand if you'd want to teach someone a few things but what you've been doing is just out of control. You've never approved of me from the moment you met me a few years ago. We were complete contrasts but we just didn't know it at the time. You're a stuck up prude who thinks that the world revolves around yourself and the image of dad rolling through your head while he "tells" you that everyone is out to get you. That everyone is talking junk behind your back.
I've never uttered a bad word against you, Michael, until you've always provoked me into doing so. Remember last year? Remember last year when I was having the dreams where you were {No Means No} Megan? How angry was I because that dream, that nightmare wouldn't leave me? I'm getting that same feeling now but its only a little different then what it was before. Its now you killing your own son's life by doing the exact same thing dad did to us, to toughen us up.
He faked his own death and you're believing this false image of him in your head? Michael, get real help and don't fake your way through it this time. I don't know how many more times I can repeat this same verse over and over again. Dad forced mom to put a bullet through her head. He forced me to go live in the States with our aunt and uncle. He made sure that Freya would get messed up for life in some insane asylum. And then he put you into an orphange.
We've all had it tough brother, tougher then a few people have but this goes on and on in the world and do you think that people like this see images of the man who f*cked their life up?! They get help, real help instead of faking it...
*Brad takes a moment to compose his thoughts before completely changing his tone.*
Do you know the part in 8 Mile where Em gets his ass kicked by those six guys? He knew what was going to happen to him and he accepted it. Em let those guys beat him senseless. They were about to kill him and one of 'em said not to do it. You see Spike, what separates us from each other is that I have that voice and you don't. I know when to stop when someone is beaten and broken. Even when I said that I wanted to kill you earlier this week, I'll never be able to do it because of that voice.
Beat me Spike, hurt me. I want you make me bleed to satisfy your own sick bloodlust that Conrad has boiling in your head over words I never said. If you end my career on Sunday night, then that's what you were meant to do brother. It was your destiny in this industry to take the man who looks like you out of this business forever. I know you want me dead either way but like I told you a couple of days ago.
I love you Michael Kane and nothing will ever change that, not even if you killed me."