Post by Deleted on Jul 24, 2021 14:00:31 GMT -5
"Tonight has been a really fun night in my life. Somehow Megan was able to get the kids pawned off on family and friends so we could spend the night alone. Its been so long since we've been able to have such a fun time. I'll never regret any single child I've had. In my younger days I probably would have. The days where I was immature and a jerk.
Still am a jerk depending on who you ask.
No matter the case of how people feel about me. There is an event in my life coming up next month. I started this business when I was twenty five. So in early April, it'll have been six years since I began this long road. Titles, accomplishments, friends and money. All things I've lost going down this road.
There was a time in my life where I wouldn't have cared if something happened to my loved ones. I was too busy wrapped up in my own little world of alcohol and a few drugs to really give a crap. But as we get older, things change, our values and ideals change. When I was Reckless Jack, everyone knew that I lived that name. I was that guy who didn't care what he did.
Just part of going down that road in life. But sometimes you can take the worst turns and still end up going on the right road that was meant for you. Just takes a little bit longer then you expected. I honestly didn't think I'd be here right now recording this for anyone a year ago. I thought I'd burned my final bridge with nearly every single promotion I've worked for.
But for some reason this place always welcomed me back with open arms. I never really understood it either. Management knows how much of a problem I can be but I think they're just waiting for me to finally find that right road to walk down in this promotion.
Two years ago I was on the right road. Two years ago I defeated Steve Awesome at the pay per view we're holding this Sunday night. Two months after that, I got my last chance at a singles title in this promotion until now. Two years of off and on and yet you still feel the need to grant me something that I honestly don't have a right to.
Perhaps this is just another test to see if I'm walking down the right road here. If I lose, people will expect the flip out and the rage quit before I change my mind the day after. If I win people will wonder how long I'll keep caring about my status before I fade back into the clouds.
So many labels with my career and they're all of my own doing. But Xavier Cross showed me something. That man carried a horrible label when I first met him. He was a brash, cocky and arrogant little ass. Almost reminded me of me. I think that's why when I first met him, I hated him. I detested him because I saw that same image of myself.
A guy who just wanted to piss everyone off that he could. A guy that didn't care about who he hurt or why he hurt them. I think that's why I've taken such an interest in Xavier Cross. He's almost like a less talented version of me.
Didn't think I'd go the whole time without bad mouthing someone did you?
But what happened in your personal life is something that I thought happened to me. Remember when I thought my son Chris was dead? No one gave me the air time to boo hoo about it. No one gave me the time of day when I thought he was dead. The only person that cared, I can't even mention his name on nCw anymore out of fear of getting fired.
So you see Xavier, I'm sorry your wife died, I truly am. But just remember I've gone through this same thing and the respect that you've gotten out of it, it makes me burn. You haven't done half the things that I've done and you get air time to cry out your soul because you want to make yourself look like a giant worldbeater when you somehow defied the odds and...
Well beating The Ace really isn't defying the odds. More like a sure bet...
Cross, on Sunday night, I'm coming for that title. Its been too long since I've held a piece of singles gold in my life. I know I've said I'm title oriented anymore but this is just calling to me. That title is screaming for me to hold onto it and make it back into something. Cross, I love you like a little brother sometimes.
But big brother is gonna paint your ass red Sunday night."
Still am a jerk depending on who you ask.
No matter the case of how people feel about me. There is an event in my life coming up next month. I started this business when I was twenty five. So in early April, it'll have been six years since I began this long road. Titles, accomplishments, friends and money. All things I've lost going down this road.
There was a time in my life where I wouldn't have cared if something happened to my loved ones. I was too busy wrapped up in my own little world of alcohol and a few drugs to really give a crap. But as we get older, things change, our values and ideals change. When I was Reckless Jack, everyone knew that I lived that name. I was that guy who didn't care what he did.
Just part of going down that road in life. But sometimes you can take the worst turns and still end up going on the right road that was meant for you. Just takes a little bit longer then you expected. I honestly didn't think I'd be here right now recording this for anyone a year ago. I thought I'd burned my final bridge with nearly every single promotion I've worked for.
But for some reason this place always welcomed me back with open arms. I never really understood it either. Management knows how much of a problem I can be but I think they're just waiting for me to finally find that right road to walk down in this promotion.
Two years ago I was on the right road. Two years ago I defeated Steve Awesome at the pay per view we're holding this Sunday night. Two months after that, I got my last chance at a singles title in this promotion until now. Two years of off and on and yet you still feel the need to grant me something that I honestly don't have a right to.
Perhaps this is just another test to see if I'm walking down the right road here. If I lose, people will expect the flip out and the rage quit before I change my mind the day after. If I win people will wonder how long I'll keep caring about my status before I fade back into the clouds.
So many labels with my career and they're all of my own doing. But Xavier Cross showed me something. That man carried a horrible label when I first met him. He was a brash, cocky and arrogant little ass. Almost reminded me of me. I think that's why when I first met him, I hated him. I detested him because I saw that same image of myself.
A guy who just wanted to piss everyone off that he could. A guy that didn't care about who he hurt or why he hurt them. I think that's why I've taken such an interest in Xavier Cross. He's almost like a less talented version of me.
Didn't think I'd go the whole time without bad mouthing someone did you?
But what happened in your personal life is something that I thought happened to me. Remember when I thought my son Chris was dead? No one gave me the air time to boo hoo about it. No one gave me the time of day when I thought he was dead. The only person that cared, I can't even mention his name on nCw anymore out of fear of getting fired.
So you see Xavier, I'm sorry your wife died, I truly am. But just remember I've gone through this same thing and the respect that you've gotten out of it, it makes me burn. You haven't done half the things that I've done and you get air time to cry out your soul because you want to make yourself look like a giant worldbeater when you somehow defied the odds and...
Well beating The Ace really isn't defying the odds. More like a sure bet...
Cross, on Sunday night, I'm coming for that title. Its been too long since I've held a piece of singles gold in my life. I know I've said I'm title oriented anymore but this is just calling to me. That title is screaming for me to hold onto it and make it back into something. Cross, I love you like a little brother sometimes.
But big brother is gonna paint your ass red Sunday night."