Post by Deleted on Jul 24, 2021 14:02:58 GMT -5
"About twenty five years ago I found myself moving from Belfast, Ireland to this city. I found myself away from my siblings so I could live a lie here in New York City. From the age of six until three years ago when he revealed everything to me I called this city home. I was raised to think I was born in Brooklyn. I was lead to think that my aunt and uncle were my parents as you all know by now. For twenty six years or so this was my home, New York City, was where my first child was born so it's a homecoming for Chris too. But this place has it's own share of bad memories.
DDK brought up something that's been on my mind for the past couple of days. He said that Reckless Jack is the better side of Brad Kane. I didn't know if I should've laughed or gotten angry at that comment. If you call all of the problems I had as Reckless Jack as a better half then I suppose that would be correct. The moment I moved out of this city for Boston, Reckless Jack was over and done for no matter what I said or if I used the name.
Coming back here has brought back some happy times and some not so happy. This is the place where I first fell in love. I got married for the first time in this city. I trained to wrestle in this city and I had my first match at the Manhattan Center. Those memories make me smile. They were some of the best times of my life but it didn't compare to some events that took place in the building known as Madison Square Garden.
Back in the day when I would save up my money, I'd go catch a Knicks game or whatever wrestling event happened to be at MSG. All my problems went away and I know that one day my greatest achievement in life would be to wrestle in that place. Two years ago I wrestled there in a main event and I won a World Title. I finally realized my dream of winning such a match at Madison Square Garden. Even though my match on Sunday night won't be like that one, it'll still be the same feeling.
That feeling of getting chills. That feeling of knowing that people I went to high school with will be in the crowd watching me. My old friends will be there. People I used to hang out with including my best friend who has been sitting in the can for the past couple of years is getting out to watch this. Knowing those people will be there brings a giant smile to my face. But for all of those good times that I've had here with those people, there has just as many bad times.
It's part of why I left this city in the first place, to escape from those memories. I wanted to go away from my divorce on Christmas Eve. I wanted to get away from the place where I first lost my son due to my own stupidity. I wanted to leave this place and never look back in that mirror again to see it. But when I come back to this city all of it comes back in a rush that makes me a little off balance and I feel like dropping to my knees and screaming.
This time though, it's different. With Chris back in my life and Megan at my side come Sunday night all of those bad memories will be gone forever. I can finally put the pain and misery that New York City gave me behind. That redemption I've been speaking about can finally be obtained, at least for a little while, with the burial of Reckless Jack. He was born here in NYC and it's fitting that the end of him is here. I bought the house where I was raised in and I had it bulldozed down to the ground.
I had that empty space created into a youth center so kids can go to a place where they'll be welcomed after school and won't be afraid of a drunk uncle and an aunt who didn't care. There is still another thing that needs to be done before I can bury Reckless Jack in this forsaken place. It'll be a little rough for me to say it but I have to. Just three little words will free me of the past and nightmares that Reckless Jack and New York City give me.
I forgive you.
Coming back home has made me realize that I've done things I'm not too proud of. I've had things done to me that are indescribeable because of my uncle. Getting Chris back last year has made me realize that life is too short to hold a grudge against a man who was raised to see the violence of his own father beating his mother. He just didn't know any better and I nearly fell into the same trap but I saved myself from it. Reckless Jack was the trap and he's let go of forever. Sorry to disappoint you DDK but that's the way life has to be.
To everyone else in this match, I know I should be saying a few words about you but I don't think I have to. We all know how important Sunday night is and how much we all want to get our hand raised high above our heads. We want to get that open contract for a title shot of our choosing and use that to raise that career just a little bit more. Sunday night after I'm done in the middle of that ring, win or lose, I'll be happy with myself. I can leave New York City with a sense of happiness instead of sorrow.
The homecoming ends on Sunday. It's finally over. I can let him go..."
DDK brought up something that's been on my mind for the past couple of days. He said that Reckless Jack is the better side of Brad Kane. I didn't know if I should've laughed or gotten angry at that comment. If you call all of the problems I had as Reckless Jack as a better half then I suppose that would be correct. The moment I moved out of this city for Boston, Reckless Jack was over and done for no matter what I said or if I used the name.
Coming back here has brought back some happy times and some not so happy. This is the place where I first fell in love. I got married for the first time in this city. I trained to wrestle in this city and I had my first match at the Manhattan Center. Those memories make me smile. They were some of the best times of my life but it didn't compare to some events that took place in the building known as Madison Square Garden.
Back in the day when I would save up my money, I'd go catch a Knicks game or whatever wrestling event happened to be at MSG. All my problems went away and I know that one day my greatest achievement in life would be to wrestle in that place. Two years ago I wrestled there in a main event and I won a World Title. I finally realized my dream of winning such a match at Madison Square Garden. Even though my match on Sunday night won't be like that one, it'll still be the same feeling.
That feeling of getting chills. That feeling of knowing that people I went to high school with will be in the crowd watching me. My old friends will be there. People I used to hang out with including my best friend who has been sitting in the can for the past couple of years is getting out to watch this. Knowing those people will be there brings a giant smile to my face. But for all of those good times that I've had here with those people, there has just as many bad times.
It's part of why I left this city in the first place, to escape from those memories. I wanted to go away from my divorce on Christmas Eve. I wanted to get away from the place where I first lost my son due to my own stupidity. I wanted to leave this place and never look back in that mirror again to see it. But when I come back to this city all of it comes back in a rush that makes me a little off balance and I feel like dropping to my knees and screaming.
This time though, it's different. With Chris back in my life and Megan at my side come Sunday night all of those bad memories will be gone forever. I can finally put the pain and misery that New York City gave me behind. That redemption I've been speaking about can finally be obtained, at least for a little while, with the burial of Reckless Jack. He was born here in NYC and it's fitting that the end of him is here. I bought the house where I was raised in and I had it bulldozed down to the ground.
I had that empty space created into a youth center so kids can go to a place where they'll be welcomed after school and won't be afraid of a drunk uncle and an aunt who didn't care. There is still another thing that needs to be done before I can bury Reckless Jack in this forsaken place. It'll be a little rough for me to say it but I have to. Just three little words will free me of the past and nightmares that Reckless Jack and New York City give me.
I forgive you.
Coming back home has made me realize that I've done things I'm not too proud of. I've had things done to me that are indescribeable because of my uncle. Getting Chris back last year has made me realize that life is too short to hold a grudge against a man who was raised to see the violence of his own father beating his mother. He just didn't know any better and I nearly fell into the same trap but I saved myself from it. Reckless Jack was the trap and he's let go of forever. Sorry to disappoint you DDK but that's the way life has to be.
To everyone else in this match, I know I should be saying a few words about you but I don't think I have to. We all know how important Sunday night is and how much we all want to get our hand raised high above our heads. We want to get that open contract for a title shot of our choosing and use that to raise that career just a little bit more. Sunday night after I'm done in the middle of that ring, win or lose, I'll be happy with myself. I can leave New York City with a sense of happiness instead of sorrow.
The homecoming ends on Sunday. It's finally over. I can let him go..."