The Dunne Deal
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Post by The Dunne Deal on Aug 14, 2021 19:22:42 GMT -5
My apologies, I'm sorry I let everyone down. Forgive me if my other hobbies took over. Besides, I'm seriously contemplating of full on retiring from E-fedding. I love this, but to honest, it's not fun anymore. The passion I had for this is dying.
Between work, my depression, raising my child, other RL issues. I'm beginning to think maybe this isn't for me. I appreciate everything people like you and others have done for me. You helped through a lot.
The decision isn't final, I'm still debating. So don't count me out just yet. I'm just weighing my opinions.
I love doing this, I love the passion and friendships I've made here. But I also enjoy streaming, I enjoy making Let's Plays on YouTube.
But a cannot and will not choose between the XHF Network, and Twitch and YouTube.
I want to do all three, but sometimes I have to choose.
This helps me out so much, I can all my anger and frustrations out form my job into writing. I've been able to put in RP's words and feeling I've been to afraid to say in person.
But Twitch helps me gain confidence to actually say those things.
I've been angry, I've been upset, and I'm lost on what to do.
Like I said in my Dunne RP for NLW.
Right now, I absolutely 100% with out a doubt hate myself.
And I hate that I do.
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Post by Mongo the Destroyer on Aug 14, 2021 19:25:37 GMT -5
I don't see why you'd have to choose between anything. Just be careful about overcommiting when you've got a busy bump ahead. I've had to pull my characters way back to pretty much just LD in NPW these days to keep the balance
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Post by Spike Kane on Aug 14, 2021 19:41:50 GMT -5
Take some time away.
Focus on your real life and your daughter. Think of it as recharging. I've retired and come back so many times that it's not even a funny joke anymore. Fuck, I killed my character off, and fully quit for years. Yet here I am.
The XHF will be here, and you will be welcome. Stick around the Discord, especially if it helps your mental health. I enjoy chatting and debating with a lot of you folks on there, and it helps me get through tough times too.
Take care of your mental health, and be there for the kiddo my dude. The rest will come with time.
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Post by The Dunne Deal on Aug 14, 2021 19:51:54 GMT -5
Thanks Appreciate it. Like I said nothing is set in stone yet. I just feel like I'm letting people down by not making this a priority.
This though is the main reason why I'm sitting out of End of Days. The tournaments, solo matches all of it.
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Post by Jesse Jamester on Aug 14, 2021 20:06:15 GMT -5
No sweat about the no show Dunne. I don’t know you very well but was worried when you didn’t show.
Life always comes first, regardless of what people think. Take care of yourself. Lower your commitments here. Focus on what makes you happiest.
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Post by Venom 🕷 on Aug 14, 2021 20:15:28 GMT -5
Retire
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Post by SWAT Team on Aug 14, 2021 21:47:28 GMT -5
you got too many eggs in too many baskets on the network and are spreading all the good work around just trying to keep up, where all that effort could go into one or two baskets and then you will both thrive there and have more free time for other interests
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Post by Kyle on Aug 15, 2021 7:27:24 GMT -5
Oh geez, a one word reply, that's helpful. 🙄 I'd suggest what others have, Dunne, take some time to recharge and reassess what you want to do, if you have the time to do it. There's no shame in taking a break to pursue a different hobby. You know how friendly XHF is to members even if they're not active RPers, so you'd still be welcomed.
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Post by Robbie A on Aug 15, 2021 10:12:52 GMT -5
I think there’s two parts to this.
Firstly if there’s some form of enjoyment or outlet you get from this game, you should keep doing it. As human beings we should always aim to do what makes us happy in whatever shape or size that comes in. I appreciate though that having/making time can be tricky. You clearly have a few outlets for different functions which again is great, but e fedding should always be something you want to do and not feel duty bound. If you are feeling that way you should be either finding a way to change that or take a break, as others have suggested. As others have said, there has to be balance as well with real life responsibilities (which take an obvious priority).
However, I think the reaction to this may not have been so warm because frankly, Dunne, this isn’t the first time you’ve been in this position. This happened back in November/December last year and you resolved to strip back your amount of characters after having one more match with The Saga, but you’ve since dotted all of them and more about in different feds. I didn’t have a problem because I assumed that you had control on it all. However it feels like you circled back to where you were before, and that parts on you.
I know, that feels a little but ultimately the advice is being recycled from before mate, the bottom line hasn’t really changed. We all would rather have you here and rp’ing and enjoying yourself, and it sucks that you feel low with it again, but I think it’s really time for you to consider how many characters you run, how much responsibility you put on your shoulders and actually sticking to it because you may find it’s not so much of a time drain and you enjoy it more that way. Ultimately, I hope you find the right balance, and I honestly hope that still includes efedding because it clearly ticks boxes for you, but whatever you do I hope it finds you some more happiness.
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Post by Rob Garcia on Aug 15, 2021 13:27:15 GMT -5
I feel you man. There was a point where this hobby was making me too upset at times. I think it happens to a lot of us cus we put our hearts into it. Since coming to NPW I changed my outlook on the game, I stopped trying to win, started writing to entertain myself and my boys. Losses don't bother me, wins aren't everything and the game all together is way more fun. I enjoy the angles and storylines so much more. I know a lot has to do with the NPW staff, they're awesome. Anyways, my advice would be to take a breather. Get your life situated. This is just a game. It will be here when you're ready to come back. Maybe tomorrow you'll feel different and be motivated to give it a shot, maybe a year from now you will, or maybe never. Either way you do what's best for you man. I hope you find peace either way. I got you in my prayers.
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Post by Venom 🕷 on Aug 15, 2021 16:12:07 GMT -5
Oh geez, a one word reply, that's helpful. 🙄 I'd suggest what others have, Dunne, take some time to recharge and reassess what you want to do, if you have the time to do it. There's no shame in taking a break to pursue a different hobby. You know how friendly XHF is to members even if they're not active RPers, so you'd still be welcomed. I’ve given him countless advice before more than one word. He needs to hang it up. If you’ve got a problem my not being helpful my DMs are open. If not move on.
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Post by Kyle on Aug 15, 2021 17:18:29 GMT -5
Oh geez, a one word reply, that's helpful. 🙄 I'd suggest what others have, Dunne, take some time to recharge and reassess what you want to do, if you have the time to do it. There's no shame in taking a break to pursue a different hobby. You know how friendly XHF is to members even if they're not active RPers, so you'd still be welcomed. I’ve given him countless advice before more than one word. He needs to hang it up. If you’ve got a problem my not being helpful my DMs are open. If not move on. Excuse me? Practice what you preach, brother. Dude's looking for advice, there's not two parts to this. Got nothing nice to say, don't say anything at all. Public, DMs, or otherwise.
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Post by The Dunne Deal on Aug 15, 2021 18:05:06 GMT -5
I said I was contemplating on retiring, but if I do.
It's gonna be on my terms, and not because someone to me to it.
I'm upset, I'm angry, and now I'm pissed.
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Post by Nausicaä Suzuki on Aug 15, 2021 18:05:21 GMT -5
Maybe instead of straight up retiring why not have a break (or let's say part time retiring like Terry Funk always does, lol) and still come visit for chats on discord?
That way you have more time to consider your options, as well as try out others things before making a final decision that you may or may not regret bud?
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Post by Venom 🕷 on Aug 15, 2021 18:36:41 GMT -5
I’ve given him countless advice before more than one word. He needs to hang it up. If you’ve got a problem my not being helpful my DMs are open. If not move on. Excuse me? Practice what you preach, brother. Dude's looking for advice, there's not two parts to this. Got nothing nice to say, don't say anything at all. Public, DMs, or otherwise. Again if you have problems my DMs are open
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