Post by Spike Kane on Aug 27, 2021 11:58:34 GMT -5
It's been a little while now since I did the right thing for myself and stepped away from nCw, stepped away from wrestling all together. I had so much going on in my mind, and so many voices clawing and nagging at me. People trying to influence me, people putting me down.....all sorts.
I couldn't take it any more.
I was depressed, I was bitter, and I was angry. I realise that me saying this seems a little tired and repeated, but I'm being honest with you all right now. I felt like I couldn't hack it any more, I felt like I had become the laughing stock of this company, and it just didn't sit right with me. So I stepped away, no forced leave of absence, no doctors orders, no cowardly attack that puts me on the shelf so that somebody else can try and climb the ladder here.
It was a choice, one that I made, and one I knew I would regret. I know it's just a matter of time before people jump down my throat, before people start throwing the same old cliché crap at me about leaving, and not staying away and blah blah blah.
But you know what? I honestly don't give a crap.
I've been itching to get in the ring since the moment I left. You all know as much as I do, that the itch, the urge, it never goes away. What we do is in our blood, we're the damn best at it, and it's why we are here in nCw.....
So yeah, the excuse I used to come back was to get to Davey Ortega and wipe that smirk off of his face, but make no presumptions guys.....I'm back, and I don't give a flying rats ass who you are, or what you do. I'm back for a fight, I'm back to cause havoc like the good old days, and no wonder it starts with the man I joined five years ago.....before I destroyed his career, and ruined his life.
This is my curse, what we do, what only we can do.....it's the one thing I'm good at, and I keep coming back because of that. I hate it, but I love it at the same time. I need it, the rush, the adrenaline, the reaction from that crowd. It feeds me, it keeps me alive.
I'm not done yet.”
~~~
Over the years we've come across each other in so many different ways, and combinations, haven't we Adam? We've been on the opposite sides of teams, of wars, of revolutions, but we've never really had much animosity between each other, have we?
Oh don't get me wrong, I know you don't like me. Quite frankly, I'm sure you've got your reasons, and I'm pretty sure they are founded in sound logic. Honestly though? I don't particularly care. You see it was the frame of mind I was in that lead to my downward spiral. Caring what people thought about me, giving too much of a crap about who liked me, who didn't and then why didn't they like me?
I went above and beyond, I hosted my own TV show to try and promote some of the ongoings within this company, to try and give the little guy a shout out and draw attention to his work. People couldn't see that though could they? They just thought Spike TV was purely to promote Spike Kane! But you and I? We know the truth, that Spike Kane doesn't need to be promoted, does he? I doubt you'll accept it, but you have to know deep down inside that ever since I stepped foot into this company five years ago I have been a driving force behind it, I have been a marquee name.....I was the draw that got this company going. I know it, and I'm proud of it, your wife knows it....and she respects it. Which is why, even when I didn't agree with her policies and the way she was going about things, I never stood in her way. Yeah, I might have voiced my opinion, but as a friend and a confidant, I would have thought she respected that.
I'm not a “Yes Man” I never have been. I've butted heads with so many people in this company and in others all around the world because I refuse to back down when I know I am right, or when I know the cause is right. Conviction, that's what the call it.....something that is found in abundance in you Adam. You've always had the mindset of taking what you want, taking what you deserve. I'm not a fool, I've watched you grow in nCw. I saw you start out as the tag team partner to The Punisher, flinching every time he spouted his {Mongo Edit: Nah we don't say that anymore} catchphrase. I watched you excel in the tag team division, and since then you've gone on and on to truly become the King of nCw. A lot of people would put that down to boning the boss' daughter.
I'm not a lot of people.
I see the real you Adam. I see the man behind the schemes, I see the man behind the b.s. That floods the internet message boards, and the piss poor news articles. I see a man of extreme intelligence. I see a man who carved a legacy through his own blood, and at the cost of more than one of his enemies. People have complained about your position in this company, about the abuse of power.....me though? I simply say to them, you try repeating what Adam Knite has done.
Nobody ever will.
At the same time, I ask you to look at what I have done, what I have accomplished, and tell me.....are we so different? Can anybody replicate what I too have done here in nCw? People like us Adam, whether you like being spoken about in the same breath as me or not.....we excel, we rise above the rest. The saying is that the cream always rises to the top. We've done that, we've been the successful ones. So if you have that nagging though in your mind, asking why am I back? What the hell could I possible want? I've been there, done that, what else is there left for me to do?
Ask yourself before you ask me.
You might not like me Adam, you might hate my guts, but hey.....maybe you do like me, and it's been hidden all these years. The fact remains the same, regardless of how you feel about me, you have to accept that me being in that ring, is a good thing for nCw. You have to accept that the return of Spike Kane brings star power, and at the very least.....you have to respect what I've done, and what I'm capable of.
Just like I do, for you.
~~~
Spike was in his gym, working on the huge punch bag like he had done for many, many times before. He was sending high kicks, low kicks, back hands, hooks and jabs. Trying all sorts of combinations.
Spike: I know you are there, you don't need to hide.
It was then that the long lost figure of Atreyu stepped out from the shadows of the gym. He'd clearly been watching Spike work out for a while. Not in a stalker way, stop being a perve.
Atreyu: I wasn't sure you'd want to see me right now.
Spike took a deep breath as he sent a huge round house kick into the back.
Spike: Why wouldn't I want to see my greatest protégée?
Atreyu shrugged, he knew that there was a chance of a fight breaking out here, but he had to say to Spike what was on his mind.
Atreyu: Because you know I'm going to tell you that you shouldn't be going back...
Spike: How did I know that was coming?
Atreyu: Because you know it yourself?
Spike stopped and grabbed the bag with both hands, resting his forehead against it.
Spike: I really don't want to hear any of this Wade. I'm gonna get enough from my opponents until the horse is dead, then they'll beat it some more.
Atreyu: Like the “you left” jabs?
Spike: Exactly.
Atreyu moved forward and grabbed a bottle of water out of the back, chucking it to Spike. The God of Xtreme caught the bottle and began opening it, taking a sip.
Atreyu: They had a point.
Spike: Umm, the always do.
Atreyu: You put it behind you Mike. You were doing well...
Spike: And all I wanted to do was punch the crap out of people. The anger, the rage, it was building inside of me. I need that out put, I need to vent!
Atreyu: So get a hobby like everyone else!
Spike: I'm not like everyone else.
Spike rounded on his good friend now, the conversation clearly striking a nerve.
Spike: Look Wade...I'm doing it, it's done. I spoke to Kelly and she gave me a new contract. This is what I do, it's what I'm good at.....it's all I know. I have to do it, I'm going nuts without it.
Atreyu: I get it Mike....just.....be careful, yeah?
Spike took a deep breath and nodded, closing his eyes as he did so. The two extended their hands and shook before they embraced like old friends.
Atreyu: Good luck...
And fade.
~~~
Roberto Verona.....man, didn't I tell you it was only a matter of time? Didn't I say from day one that you would be the nCw World Champion? I'd say I'm proud of you, but you don't need or want to hear that from me. You've probably been told by every person on the roster “Hey, I knew you could do it!” or “Good on you Bertie!” …..but then again, maybe you've just been inundated with constant questions of “why?” or “how could you betray us?” my money is on the latter, because I understand how the sheep work.
I also understand why you did what you did.
Oh man! Shock, horror! I'm not tearing into you for joining the dark side! Yeah, you might have gone against some things that you said, might have turned against your morales, but maybe inside your head you've legitimised it? Maybe inside your head doing what you did, actually pushed forward your agenda. I don't pretend to know Roberto, I don't even pretend to guess what is going on in your mind. All I can say is, I've been there...
I've done it myself.
Five years ago I joined The Empire, in nCw's first battle of “good” versus “evil” and it was shortly after that, things took a turn. I took it upon myself to strike down Davey Ortega, to turn my back on my “Emperor” and take it over myself. I pushed The Empire to glory, and became the world champion. So I do understand Roberto, I totally understand the lure of power, the temptation of being that man on the top, that guy who looks down on the rest and screams from the top of his lungs.....I.....am the best....in the world!
You've earned that right Roberto, in my eyes you earned it a very long time ago. When you went up against Ricky Johnson, we all expected you to come out the other side as the champion, and I think it both shuck, and hurt this federation when it didn't happen. You were the man to carry this company, but now? Now you've carved your own way there......through a hard, and extremely tough path. So am I still proud? Of course I am. I like to think of you as a friend of mine, no matter who you ally yourself with. You were there for me when I needed a friend, and I will always be there for you when I am needed. Though with the hierarchy at your side, I doubt that will be any time soon.
You are the world champion, and I have to respect that. I personally don't care much for how you went about it. I'm not fussed that you allied yourself with the very people you've been campaigning against for months, I really don't care....because you showed your resilience, you showed your cunning....and you threw everyone. Not a single soul saw it coming, and for that, you have my admiration. I've always prided myself on being able to trick the mindless sheep, to able to confused and destroy the “boys in the back” so I honestly, tip my hat to you for that.
However, I understand how this business works. I come back in my first match back, to team up with my brother-in-law. A man who I've recently come to respect and admire. A man who is married to my sister, who in herself is an amazing wrestler, yet he devotes himself to her and their family. I couldn't respect a man any more than that, but I also know the danger he possess. I know what Dexter is capable of, and I'm going into this match with my eyes wide open. I understand Roberto, you have a point to prove, you have a message to send to the roster.
I will not be the victim.
I wish you luck in your reign Roberto, from the bottom of my heart I do. I just warn you, not to try and set an example at my expense, not to try and make a statement at my expense, because I'm more than happy to let you go on doing your thing, to stand by and watch as a friend rules this federation the way I used to.....I don't want that to change and have to stand against you. Honestly Roberto, I really don't want to. I want to applaud you, I want to stand at your side and watch you work.....I have my sights set on someone else, and not you or your championship, all I ask....is that you respect that.
I'll see all three of you on Sunday, who'd have thunk a return right to the main event, huh? It's gonna be intense.
I couldn't take it any more.
I was depressed, I was bitter, and I was angry. I realise that me saying this seems a little tired and repeated, but I'm being honest with you all right now. I felt like I couldn't hack it any more, I felt like I had become the laughing stock of this company, and it just didn't sit right with me. So I stepped away, no forced leave of absence, no doctors orders, no cowardly attack that puts me on the shelf so that somebody else can try and climb the ladder here.
It was a choice, one that I made, and one I knew I would regret. I know it's just a matter of time before people jump down my throat, before people start throwing the same old cliché crap at me about leaving, and not staying away and blah blah blah.
But you know what? I honestly don't give a crap.
I've been itching to get in the ring since the moment I left. You all know as much as I do, that the itch, the urge, it never goes away. What we do is in our blood, we're the damn best at it, and it's why we are here in nCw.....
So yeah, the excuse I used to come back was to get to Davey Ortega and wipe that smirk off of his face, but make no presumptions guys.....I'm back, and I don't give a flying rats ass who you are, or what you do. I'm back for a fight, I'm back to cause havoc like the good old days, and no wonder it starts with the man I joined five years ago.....before I destroyed his career, and ruined his life.
This is my curse, what we do, what only we can do.....it's the one thing I'm good at, and I keep coming back because of that. I hate it, but I love it at the same time. I need it, the rush, the adrenaline, the reaction from that crowd. It feeds me, it keeps me alive.
I'm not done yet.”
~~~
Over the years we've come across each other in so many different ways, and combinations, haven't we Adam? We've been on the opposite sides of teams, of wars, of revolutions, but we've never really had much animosity between each other, have we?
Oh don't get me wrong, I know you don't like me. Quite frankly, I'm sure you've got your reasons, and I'm pretty sure they are founded in sound logic. Honestly though? I don't particularly care. You see it was the frame of mind I was in that lead to my downward spiral. Caring what people thought about me, giving too much of a crap about who liked me, who didn't and then why didn't they like me?
I went above and beyond, I hosted my own TV show to try and promote some of the ongoings within this company, to try and give the little guy a shout out and draw attention to his work. People couldn't see that though could they? They just thought Spike TV was purely to promote Spike Kane! But you and I? We know the truth, that Spike Kane doesn't need to be promoted, does he? I doubt you'll accept it, but you have to know deep down inside that ever since I stepped foot into this company five years ago I have been a driving force behind it, I have been a marquee name.....I was the draw that got this company going. I know it, and I'm proud of it, your wife knows it....and she respects it. Which is why, even when I didn't agree with her policies and the way she was going about things, I never stood in her way. Yeah, I might have voiced my opinion, but as a friend and a confidant, I would have thought she respected that.
I'm not a “Yes Man” I never have been. I've butted heads with so many people in this company and in others all around the world because I refuse to back down when I know I am right, or when I know the cause is right. Conviction, that's what the call it.....something that is found in abundance in you Adam. You've always had the mindset of taking what you want, taking what you deserve. I'm not a fool, I've watched you grow in nCw. I saw you start out as the tag team partner to The Punisher, flinching every time he spouted his {Mongo Edit: Nah we don't say that anymore} catchphrase. I watched you excel in the tag team division, and since then you've gone on and on to truly become the King of nCw. A lot of people would put that down to boning the boss' daughter.
I'm not a lot of people.
I see the real you Adam. I see the man behind the schemes, I see the man behind the b.s. That floods the internet message boards, and the piss poor news articles. I see a man of extreme intelligence. I see a man who carved a legacy through his own blood, and at the cost of more than one of his enemies. People have complained about your position in this company, about the abuse of power.....me though? I simply say to them, you try repeating what Adam Knite has done.
Nobody ever will.
At the same time, I ask you to look at what I have done, what I have accomplished, and tell me.....are we so different? Can anybody replicate what I too have done here in nCw? People like us Adam, whether you like being spoken about in the same breath as me or not.....we excel, we rise above the rest. The saying is that the cream always rises to the top. We've done that, we've been the successful ones. So if you have that nagging though in your mind, asking why am I back? What the hell could I possible want? I've been there, done that, what else is there left for me to do?
Ask yourself before you ask me.
You might not like me Adam, you might hate my guts, but hey.....maybe you do like me, and it's been hidden all these years. The fact remains the same, regardless of how you feel about me, you have to accept that me being in that ring, is a good thing for nCw. You have to accept that the return of Spike Kane brings star power, and at the very least.....you have to respect what I've done, and what I'm capable of.
Just like I do, for you.
~~~
Spike was in his gym, working on the huge punch bag like he had done for many, many times before. He was sending high kicks, low kicks, back hands, hooks and jabs. Trying all sorts of combinations.
Spike: I know you are there, you don't need to hide.
It was then that the long lost figure of Atreyu stepped out from the shadows of the gym. He'd clearly been watching Spike work out for a while. Not in a stalker way, stop being a perve.
Atreyu: I wasn't sure you'd want to see me right now.
Spike took a deep breath as he sent a huge round house kick into the back.
Spike: Why wouldn't I want to see my greatest protégée?
Atreyu shrugged, he knew that there was a chance of a fight breaking out here, but he had to say to Spike what was on his mind.
Atreyu: Because you know I'm going to tell you that you shouldn't be going back...
Spike: How did I know that was coming?
Atreyu: Because you know it yourself?
Spike stopped and grabbed the bag with both hands, resting his forehead against it.
Spike: I really don't want to hear any of this Wade. I'm gonna get enough from my opponents until the horse is dead, then they'll beat it some more.
Atreyu: Like the “you left” jabs?
Spike: Exactly.
Atreyu moved forward and grabbed a bottle of water out of the back, chucking it to Spike. The God of Xtreme caught the bottle and began opening it, taking a sip.
Atreyu: They had a point.
Spike: Umm, the always do.
Atreyu: You put it behind you Mike. You were doing well...
Spike: And all I wanted to do was punch the crap out of people. The anger, the rage, it was building inside of me. I need that out put, I need to vent!
Atreyu: So get a hobby like everyone else!
Spike: I'm not like everyone else.
Spike rounded on his good friend now, the conversation clearly striking a nerve.
Spike: Look Wade...I'm doing it, it's done. I spoke to Kelly and she gave me a new contract. This is what I do, it's what I'm good at.....it's all I know. I have to do it, I'm going nuts without it.
Atreyu: I get it Mike....just.....be careful, yeah?
Spike took a deep breath and nodded, closing his eyes as he did so. The two extended their hands and shook before they embraced like old friends.
Atreyu: Good luck...
And fade.
~~~
Roberto Verona.....man, didn't I tell you it was only a matter of time? Didn't I say from day one that you would be the nCw World Champion? I'd say I'm proud of you, but you don't need or want to hear that from me. You've probably been told by every person on the roster “Hey, I knew you could do it!” or “Good on you Bertie!” …..but then again, maybe you've just been inundated with constant questions of “why?” or “how could you betray us?” my money is on the latter, because I understand how the sheep work.
I also understand why you did what you did.
Oh man! Shock, horror! I'm not tearing into you for joining the dark side! Yeah, you might have gone against some things that you said, might have turned against your morales, but maybe inside your head you've legitimised it? Maybe inside your head doing what you did, actually pushed forward your agenda. I don't pretend to know Roberto, I don't even pretend to guess what is going on in your mind. All I can say is, I've been there...
I've done it myself.
Five years ago I joined The Empire, in nCw's first battle of “good” versus “evil” and it was shortly after that, things took a turn. I took it upon myself to strike down Davey Ortega, to turn my back on my “Emperor” and take it over myself. I pushed The Empire to glory, and became the world champion. So I do understand Roberto, I totally understand the lure of power, the temptation of being that man on the top, that guy who looks down on the rest and screams from the top of his lungs.....I.....am the best....in the world!
You've earned that right Roberto, in my eyes you earned it a very long time ago. When you went up against Ricky Johnson, we all expected you to come out the other side as the champion, and I think it both shuck, and hurt this federation when it didn't happen. You were the man to carry this company, but now? Now you've carved your own way there......through a hard, and extremely tough path. So am I still proud? Of course I am. I like to think of you as a friend of mine, no matter who you ally yourself with. You were there for me when I needed a friend, and I will always be there for you when I am needed. Though with the hierarchy at your side, I doubt that will be any time soon.
You are the world champion, and I have to respect that. I personally don't care much for how you went about it. I'm not fussed that you allied yourself with the very people you've been campaigning against for months, I really don't care....because you showed your resilience, you showed your cunning....and you threw everyone. Not a single soul saw it coming, and for that, you have my admiration. I've always prided myself on being able to trick the mindless sheep, to able to confused and destroy the “boys in the back” so I honestly, tip my hat to you for that.
However, I understand how this business works. I come back in my first match back, to team up with my brother-in-law. A man who I've recently come to respect and admire. A man who is married to my sister, who in herself is an amazing wrestler, yet he devotes himself to her and their family. I couldn't respect a man any more than that, but I also know the danger he possess. I know what Dexter is capable of, and I'm going into this match with my eyes wide open. I understand Roberto, you have a point to prove, you have a message to send to the roster.
I will not be the victim.
I wish you luck in your reign Roberto, from the bottom of my heart I do. I just warn you, not to try and set an example at my expense, not to try and make a statement at my expense, because I'm more than happy to let you go on doing your thing, to stand by and watch as a friend rules this federation the way I used to.....I don't want that to change and have to stand against you. Honestly Roberto, I really don't want to. I want to applaud you, I want to stand at your side and watch you work.....I have my sights set on someone else, and not you or your championship, all I ask....is that you respect that.
I'll see all three of you on Sunday, who'd have thunk a return right to the main event, huh? It's gonna be intense.