Post by Crimson Mask II on May 8, 2023 4:37:01 GMT -5
“I never wanted to be a Professor, A Minister, or a General.”
He stood tall; his back turned upon her and stared out of the window. He dug holes in his jeans pockets and bit his toothpick.
“All I wanted to be was a Wrestler.
And that´s all I am now!”
He shook his head and stared over his shoulder, towards her.
“Five hours of gym a day, six days a week have made out of me what I physically am today. But that´s not all the training I have endured in the past six years. Being physically strong isn´t all that´s required to be a great wrestler. You need also wrestling training, technical competence if you want, and I have also had those in gallons in the last years. Wherever there was a good wrestling school, I was there being part of it.
I have spent my family´s fortune on exercise.
And I do not regret any cent spent on the cause.
Because it was a good cause; it was money spent to achieve all I wanted from life.
I am twenty-two years old and I never wanted anything else but to become the best wrestler possible. I have changed from an overweight nerd, who stood all day in front of the TV, to a superior specimen of a human being. A great and fit wrestler if there ever was one. “
He turned around to face his girlfriend, looking at her with a significant look in his eyes.
“So, if all you want to ask me is for me to quit what I have finally achieved, then do not do so. Do not ask me to decide and choose between you and my Life´s Dream. Because you would lose. Do not make me do things I do not want to do.
I have never understood people who quit their Goals just for the sake of being lazy, or scared. Or because they were too insecure about their future. There´s not something like one hundred percent of safety from failure or mistakes.
People just have to have the guts to make the right decisions. It might require sacrifices, and it might require you to go out of your comfort zone, but in the end, it is worth it. If you look back upon your life and see you do not have regrets, then everything is worth it.”
The young man started pacing around the room, without looking at the girl who was sitting on the couch. He paced with slow steps around, lost in thoughts. After a few seconds, he resumed his monologue, in a nothing-but-calm tone.
“I have never understood cowards. People who are too scared to make that final jump and live their whole life in their comfort zone. Sure, their life might be calm and secure, but all they are doing is wasting golden opportunities to really live the life they live. Because we all know that life isn’t measured by the amount of time we spend breathing, it is measured by the amount of time we remain breathless. By the amount of time, we are amazed at things and are filled with emotions.
So, I do not feel empathy with cowards, who waste their whole life doing the same boring things over and over again. They throw their lives away doing so. And they wake up one day, old, bald, and grumpy, and understand that all that´s left is Death.
That if they look back upon the road traveled, they see it was a safe path but it was filled with monotony and dullness and that all they have done, I repeat, is that they have wasted their life. And some of them understand that all that is left is at least a calm passing away.
That´s all they achieve in life.
That´s all they are.
Cowards.”
He leaned against the wall, still biting the toothpick which was hanging on the left corner of his mouth.
“And if that´s all that they are
..Well, that’s not something I want to be.
I have no fear of destruction because I am strong enough to back up my decisions. Libido is not the only way, Destrudo is also part of the equation. The strength to crush weakness and stagnant existence. That is what I am, that is what I want to be. And that´s why Alec Knight is over and Destrudo is born. That is who I am from now on.
And if you want to be part of this, then I am glad. But if you choose to walk another path, then I bid you farewell without a shadow of a doubt, because we are humans and we are free to choose our course in life.
And we all must have the might to do so.”
And he looked at her in the eyes.
He stood tall; his back turned upon her and stared out of the window. He dug holes in his jeans pockets and bit his toothpick.
“All I wanted to be was a Wrestler.
And that´s all I am now!”
He shook his head and stared over his shoulder, towards her.
“Five hours of gym a day, six days a week have made out of me what I physically am today. But that´s not all the training I have endured in the past six years. Being physically strong isn´t all that´s required to be a great wrestler. You need also wrestling training, technical competence if you want, and I have also had those in gallons in the last years. Wherever there was a good wrestling school, I was there being part of it.
I have spent my family´s fortune on exercise.
And I do not regret any cent spent on the cause.
Because it was a good cause; it was money spent to achieve all I wanted from life.
I am twenty-two years old and I never wanted anything else but to become the best wrestler possible. I have changed from an overweight nerd, who stood all day in front of the TV, to a superior specimen of a human being. A great and fit wrestler if there ever was one. “
He turned around to face his girlfriend, looking at her with a significant look in his eyes.
“So, if all you want to ask me is for me to quit what I have finally achieved, then do not do so. Do not ask me to decide and choose between you and my Life´s Dream. Because you would lose. Do not make me do things I do not want to do.
I have never understood people who quit their Goals just for the sake of being lazy, or scared. Or because they were too insecure about their future. There´s not something like one hundred percent of safety from failure or mistakes.
People just have to have the guts to make the right decisions. It might require sacrifices, and it might require you to go out of your comfort zone, but in the end, it is worth it. If you look back upon your life and see you do not have regrets, then everything is worth it.”
The young man started pacing around the room, without looking at the girl who was sitting on the couch. He paced with slow steps around, lost in thoughts. After a few seconds, he resumed his monologue, in a nothing-but-calm tone.
“I have never understood cowards. People who are too scared to make that final jump and live their whole life in their comfort zone. Sure, their life might be calm and secure, but all they are doing is wasting golden opportunities to really live the life they live. Because we all know that life isn’t measured by the amount of time we spend breathing, it is measured by the amount of time we remain breathless. By the amount of time, we are amazed at things and are filled with emotions.
So, I do not feel empathy with cowards, who waste their whole life doing the same boring things over and over again. They throw their lives away doing so. And they wake up one day, old, bald, and grumpy, and understand that all that´s left is Death.
That if they look back upon the road traveled, they see it was a safe path but it was filled with monotony and dullness and that all they have done, I repeat, is that they have wasted their life. And some of them understand that all that is left is at least a calm passing away.
That´s all they achieve in life.
That´s all they are.
Cowards.”
He leaned against the wall, still biting the toothpick which was hanging on the left corner of his mouth.
“And if that´s all that they are
..Well, that’s not something I want to be.
I have no fear of destruction because I am strong enough to back up my decisions. Libido is not the only way, Destrudo is also part of the equation. The strength to crush weakness and stagnant existence. That is what I am, that is what I want to be. And that´s why Alec Knight is over and Destrudo is born. That is who I am from now on.
And if you want to be part of this, then I am glad. But if you choose to walk another path, then I bid you farewell without a shadow of a doubt, because we are humans and we are free to choose our course in life.
And we all must have the might to do so.”
And he looked at her in the eyes.