Real retirement
Mar 30, 2024 2:22:40 GMT -5
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Post by Curtis D. Kanyon on Mar 30, 2024 2:22:40 GMT -5
TL;DR: As much as I love you, I am done with role-playing
For those curious on the long winded word salad, I lost my smile. Steve's passing really hit me hard and made me realize life's too short. I've kept telling myself that when the kids are older and things are less crazy, I'd jump back in, but thay could take years. Not only that, if I do have free time, I should be using it to better their lives. And heck, I've been meaning to write this since the Memorial Show went up, and you see how much free time I didn't have?
Not to knock anyone still doing it. If you have the time and love of the game, go for it. But I've also felt pretty bad about my performances the last three years outside of Call to Arms and last year's Rumble. Not because I lost (hell both Steve's carried me through most of those tag runs, I know I was lucky), but because I always felt rushed or that there was never enough time. I wrote because I loved it of course, and I want to be creative. But my main creative is comedy, which I already know is subjective and harder to win with. Hell, sometimes I would write stuff I know a judge would hate just to see his reaction (Sorry Vasty). But, IMO, a good comedy RP takes twice as long as a good serious RP. That's probably why I love Dinosaur Bones and Blobby so much, not just because they're in my wheelhouse of comedy taste, but because I know how much effort that is. (And I'm also jealous of how good a lot of you serious RPers are, it just does not come naturally to me.)
I know in Network times, I've been the background admin mostly here for tie breakers and wisdom. I think I only spearheaded one of the big four shows one year. But after running as a main admin for so long in the original incarnation, I just couldn't bring myself to get that deep in again. Makes me think I had one foot out the door this whole time? Idunno. But the admins I have seen coming through in the Network Era have all been great and, as much as you won't believe me, don't actually politic or bias judge as much as you think they do (I even saw Vasty vote for me a few times when he really didn't want to). P.S. DT, you are too overworked here, if this place ever magically makes money, you deserve the lionshare. Mongo, I hope someday you share your hobby's existence with your lady, you should be proud of what you've built here.
So, sorry I haven't been as active, but life got in the way. But I still was active in the Discord because I still like all of you and consider a lot of you dear friends (sorry I barely know anyone who joined in the last two years, part of the whole "no time" bit). But I'm leaving that too in order to stay out of the efed drama and not be tempted to return (I've accidentally came back into RPing twice because of the Discord). But In honor of Steve Awesome's memory, I've opened up a retired efedder Discord to keep us in contact without the efed commitments. Because I may be out, but I still consider you all brothers and sisters. Feel free to join now or later, whether you are retired or not.
So with that, goodbye, love you, and thanks for all the fish.
discord.com/invite/QNsQEjsm
For those curious on the long winded word salad, I lost my smile. Steve's passing really hit me hard and made me realize life's too short. I've kept telling myself that when the kids are older and things are less crazy, I'd jump back in, but thay could take years. Not only that, if I do have free time, I should be using it to better their lives. And heck, I've been meaning to write this since the Memorial Show went up, and you see how much free time I didn't have?
Not to knock anyone still doing it. If you have the time and love of the game, go for it. But I've also felt pretty bad about my performances the last three years outside of Call to Arms and last year's Rumble. Not because I lost (hell both Steve's carried me through most of those tag runs, I know I was lucky), but because I always felt rushed or that there was never enough time. I wrote because I loved it of course, and I want to be creative. But my main creative is comedy, which I already know is subjective and harder to win with. Hell, sometimes I would write stuff I know a judge would hate just to see his reaction (Sorry Vasty). But, IMO, a good comedy RP takes twice as long as a good serious RP. That's probably why I love Dinosaur Bones and Blobby so much, not just because they're in my wheelhouse of comedy taste, but because I know how much effort that is. (And I'm also jealous of how good a lot of you serious RPers are, it just does not come naturally to me.)
I know in Network times, I've been the background admin mostly here for tie breakers and wisdom. I think I only spearheaded one of the big four shows one year. But after running as a main admin for so long in the original incarnation, I just couldn't bring myself to get that deep in again. Makes me think I had one foot out the door this whole time? Idunno. But the admins I have seen coming through in the Network Era have all been great and, as much as you won't believe me, don't actually politic or bias judge as much as you think they do (I even saw Vasty vote for me a few times when he really didn't want to). P.S. DT, you are too overworked here, if this place ever magically makes money, you deserve the lionshare. Mongo, I hope someday you share your hobby's existence with your lady, you should be proud of what you've built here.
So, sorry I haven't been as active, but life got in the way. But I still was active in the Discord because I still like all of you and consider a lot of you dear friends (sorry I barely know anyone who joined in the last two years, part of the whole "no time" bit). But I'm leaving that too in order to stay out of the efed drama and not be tempted to return (I've accidentally came back into RPing twice because of the Discord). But In honor of Steve Awesome's memory, I've opened up a retired efedder Discord to keep us in contact without the efed commitments. Because I may be out, but I still consider you all brothers and sisters. Feel free to join now or later, whether you are retired or not.
So with that, goodbye, love you, and thanks for all the fish.
discord.com/invite/QNsQEjsm